Crossroads; L-R: Zac, electric guitar; Mark, drums; me, vocals and percussion; Danny, lead vocals and guitar; Rob, bass
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things.
If you have followed Meditations of My Heart for a time now, you may recall that my word for the year is "whatever." Yes, I know how flippant that sounds, but taken in the context of Paul's words quoted above, it has developed rich dimensions for me as the year has progressed. You can read my original "Whatever!" post here.
When our praise band, Crossroads, gathers together in the choir room to rehearse before church one Sunday in January, Danny makes a random comment, which I can't recall at the moment, and Mark, our drummer, responds good-naturedly, "Whatever!" Of course, we all laugh, even Danny, and I take that opportunity to share with the band why that is my word of the year.
"Whatever" becomes, at that moment, not just my word, but the buzzword for the entire group. Though we still us it jokingly during Sunday morning rehearsals, we are cognizant of its deeper meaning: "Whatever" happens, God has our backs. He will see us through.
Recently, Danny and I are faced with a tough decision regarding the future of Crossroads. Our mothers are getting up in years, and Danny's mom's health is declining. Weekends are the only time we can visit either one of them. With Sundays being taken up week after week with leading contemporary worship, this places constraints upon our flexibility.
We determine that it's time to leave.
After thirteen years of service to the church, this is a heart-wrenching decision for Danny, but he knows it's the right one to make. The loss grieves us; there has been nothing more satisfying in our marriage than these precious times when we've had the honor to worship God together through the gifts of music He has so graciously given us.
As I ramble through my first churchless Sunday in I can't remember when, my heart is heavy and tears well unbidden. Yet God, in His infinite mercy, brings to mind the words spoken by Maria (Julie Andrews) in The Sound of Music: When God closes a door, somewhere He opens a window.
Danny and I have yet to see the window, but we know by faith it is there and waiting.
Just around the next bend in the road. Or maybe, after the next hundred bends and twists and turns.
God has our backs.
He will see us through.
When and where has God closed a door in your life, but opened a window?
Prayer: Father, in faith we come before You today, submitting in obedience to Your will. Whatever may happen, Lord, we know we are Your children for whom You care immeasurably. May our hearts and minds be focused on all that is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable in Your sight that we might shine Your love into all the world. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.